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November 21st, 2009

Self-Complacent Nirvana

11/21/09 01:27 pm
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So the last year I spent in Vancouver was a lot about personal ... hm ... not growth, really, since it was more of shedding erroneous bits of self that obscured what has always been there. Anyway, let's say a lot of progress was made. I'm fairly certain I'm depression-proof as a result, though I'm understandably not eager to test that assertion.

Since I've been back, though, I've been all "piss off!" to spiritual and psychological work. Meditation and discovering the depths of strength I have and how to become an immovable object through acts of will and, oh bugger, I just want to drink tequila and watch pretty men have adorable drama in front of me (yes, that's what they're calling it these days). I'm actually very content right now. I don't feel like doing much of anything, to be honest, and I'm very content with that. I know it'll pass, so it's cool.

My mind, though, keeps wandering back to Warrior. It was a traumatic and life-changing experience (mostly for the better). I don't like to think about it these days, though. Whenever flashes of memories come up in my mind, I wretch - even the very good memories. Yet I constantly wear the rune I earned on graduating the training. I know it did me a world of good and, somehow, I resent it for that. It's very strange to observe my mind reacting in this way. This simultaneous love/hate thing which is so very different from loving or hating it first, and then switching to the other emotion.

Well, we'll see how all this continues to develop. Cheers.
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Alohomora

11/21/09 01:10 pm
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by tasha
Good afternoon,

So last night we go over to a friend's place for movie night and, after the first movie, she's all, like, falling apart (due to illness, not the film). Other friends take her to hospital as it does seem that bad. She's fine, we all got home around 6:00am and since I have company coming over I'm a bit sleep deprived but I've passed the tired stage and now I'm just feeling saucy.

Also, you should watch and/or listen to the below video. You don't have to watch, but at least listen. If you like it, keep on listening. If you do not, well, you know what to do. Cheers.

  • Current Mood: saucy
  • Current Music: Expialidocious
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November 19th, 2009

LOL Chrome

11/19/09 01:17 pm
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So I jumped the I.E. ship and went to Chrome. It's a very polite browser. It imported all my data from Firefox so I didn't have to remember all the passwords for all the sites I visit. It'll take some getting used to the visual style, but that'll take all of a day. I still miss Adblock, though. Although Chrome's mouse scrolling is super fast - faster than I.E. or Firefox. I've also noticed that Chrome doesn't recognize text formating control functions like Ctrl+i for italicizing or Ctrl+b for bolding. I have to actually highlight the word and then use the mouse to click the button. gonk

Job hunting has gone as expected. Regina has a lot of jobs, but they're at two extreme ends of the spectrum: The minimum wage shite no one wants, and the high-end shite no one is qualified for. Which is what I was expecting in moving back here, so I'm not surprised. I'm just "LOL OMG". Something will turn up, it always does. I'm not worried.

I watched the new Star Trek movie last night. I enjoyed it except for the lens flares. I remember reading an interview with J.J. Abrams and even he thought they overdid it. Which is cool. He acknowledges an error in judgement so I can forgive and get over it. Especially with how very pretty Mr. Pine is. He's not so pretty that I can't find him attractive, which is alright with me.

The Mage Chronicler's Guide needs to come out. I need to know what they mean, exactly, by "removing limiters". The synopsis reads "Mages can do almost anything. Their capacity to create, transform, preserve and destroy is almost limited only by their imagination. What happens when that limiter is removed? What, ultimately, can a Mage chronicle be if it goes further and stranger than ever before? The answers lie within." WANT! WANT! WANT!

Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion is crack. But it's of a limited supply. Across four or five characters I've completed every quest including the Knights of the Nine and Shivering Isles expansions. It's the PS3 version so I don't have the option of awesome mods like catgirls and weapons of mass destruction. I'm okay with that, it's given me something to do. I purposefully created a character that would look good in Golden Saint Armor and one that would look good in Sheogorath's Regalia. I seriously would love to own Sheogorath's Regalia in real life. It's totally sexy, and it's purple. Wow.
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LOL Firefox

11/19/09 11:48 am
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So for the last while while, I guess, my computer has been running slow. The memory has been very active doing Jupiter knows what. Today I switched to I.E. just so I could download AVG free (my paid version has expired and, as such, is completely non-functional - it does not revert to the free version on its own). So I booted up I.E. and shut down Firefox and the memory issues went *poof*. Ah-ha! Firefox was doing things to my computer that I was not ware of. A quick search tells me that I'm not the only one having this issue. Firefox 3 apparently hemhorrages memory. So until the good folks at Mozilla can fix that issue I'm back in I.E. land. It's strange here. There are men with small hands and they're all named Linda for some reason.

I.E. is also very presumptuous. It presumes that since I want to check my email, I also want to sign into MSN - so it boots up the program. What a deck. Then it wants me to turn on this, that and the other thing so that I can help whomever do what for some reasons. Terribly presumptuous and intrusive. I don't care for it. I.E. is very rude and inconsiderate.

I miss Adblock.
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November 18th, 2009

I want your horror I want your design

11/18/09 12:12 pm
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Yūko

Gaming
During the last World of Darkness game, Nick Ascended and, as such, he's gone from the game at last. He went out with a bang, though, taking out 250+ pissed off werewolves. It was epically appropriate. I've been wanting to introduce another character to that game but in thinking about this new character I found that it would be better to just move Alice in that direction. I'm not sure what to do with Tobi yet, however (my not-so-new Moros Mage character). Ben is leaving the story as well now that Nick is gone.

I've been thinking about things I can throw at my players for the World of Darkness game I'll be picking up again for them. In addition to hooking in character backgrounds and what happened a couple of years ago I have some ideas to start off this game with a bang. Not a literal one, but yeah, I have ideas.

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November 13th, 2009

[Dream] 2012

11/13/09 08:10 am
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The other night I had a dream in which a woman was trying to convince me that I wasn't dreaming, but that my consciousness had been projected into the year 2012. I asked her for proof of this and she gestured toward a flying car. I said, "That's absurd. We won't have flying cars in..." looking at my watch, "two years." To which she replied, "Fair enough."

And the "dream" ended. I think it was the same woman who, years ago, was trying to convince me that I should join the army.
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October 10th, 2009

[Dream] Drama!

10/10/09 11:46 am
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So I had this dream last night that a friend I know who lives in an apartment with her S.O. had a child and took her own life. I was there just before she bit the bullet and died, her kid right there. I took her daughter into the living room and proceeded to call 911, but I couldn't remember the address, just the apartment number. So I ran around frantically looking for a piece of mail or something.

During this running around I learned that her S.O. was a complete bastard. He had surreptitiously encouraged her downward spiral into suicide because he was tired of her. He was also sleeping with all the women in the apartment building, and liked that he was such a terrible human being.

It was a very strange dream to have.
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October 9th, 2009

[Dream] Vampires LOL

10/9/09 12:42 pm
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So I had a series of dreams last night and the only bit I can remember is that my lower-right leg was severely damaged in a fire. I was in a great deal of pain and needed to get to a hospital. Helping me there was Stefan Salvatore, Bill Compton and Angel. Even in the dream I was, like, WTF? Having attention lavished on me by Mr. Salvatore, however, was rather refreshing. They got me to hospital and then Mr. Salvatore insisted on seeing me home. *swoon*
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October 6th, 2009

La dolce vita

10/6/09 08:37 pm
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青空の下...
It's been six days since I returned home and it's been such a richly rewarding decision. I've reconnected with my friends, my family and myself. I went out there depressed, desirous of death and lost. I've returned vibrant, unapologetic and powerful. I've lost so much while I was out there - lost those parts of my shell that were preventing me from really being who I truly am. I return fierce, fabulous and flawless.

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I watched the series premier of Stargate: Universe and so far so good. The storytelling is solid, the characters are ... getting there, the feel of this series is very different from the previous incarnations of this franchise. Whether it's all for the better or worse will be seen in the coming months.

I still haven't watched last week's episodes of Supernatural or The Vampire Diaries, but I'll get to those tonight most likely. I've also been watching Fashion Television lately, since I now have the opportunity to. I like the channel for the most part except when they run back-to-back episodes of "__________'s Next Top Model" (Canada, America, Australia, Britain).

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Our World of Darkness game continued last week on Friday with some degree of focus coming into view. I can see that there are many sub-plots and so a grander group-focused task has been difficult to work in, so I'm going to use Nick to try to steer things towards the larger plot points so the Storyteller can get some things done for the group. I've been asked to create a new character so I've created a Vampire character named Nico (after Nico Hunter from Another Gay Movie). lol

The chargen and planning session for our Exalted game came and went on Saturday. Two characters are done and we were treated to a phenomenal meal by our Storyteller. The orange-rosemary chicken and the Sicilian bread were truly exquisite. We're working to figure out when our schedules will allow for our next session. I imagine my character (a God-Blooded Twilight-Caste Solar named Mafalda Hopkirk to look something like this).

I'm working on breeding chocobos in Final Fantasy VII. I can't seem to get a River (blue) Chocobo out of my A-Class Great Chocobos - they keep pumping out Mountain (green) ones, which is getting a bit tiring. I guess I just have to get into a few battles to reset the RNG.

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September 30th, 2009

Suiyobi 一日

9/30/09 01:00 pm
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One day…

So I did most of my packing last night and will finish the rest tonight before tomorrow morning. I just finished checking in for my flight and have printed my boarding pass for tomorrow morning. Eee! Excitement! I bought new eyeliner and eyeshadow for the first time today. I’m going to give it a go tomorrow morning before I leave.

So Jonah Blechman who plays Nico in Another Gay Movie and Another Gay Sequel: Gays Gone Wild is 34 years old! He doesn’t look a day over 24! He must be a Witch, it’s the only explanation. When he’s not dolled up to play Nico he’s a very handsome man and he studied ballet under Mikhail Baryshnikov! Holy shit!

Friday night I’ll be going back to the World of Darkness game I left behind and then on Saturday we’ll have our first Exalted session where I think we may just do chargen and talk about preliminary things.

Apparently Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days for the DS is out, at last. I may or may not pick it up, I’m not sure. I’m actually really looking forward to Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep for the PSP. Perhaps I’ll wait until I can read some reviews on 358/2 Days before I decide whether or not to pick it up.

Welcome to our soiree
Flaming hot pink bouquets
New rainbow Milky Way
Come out and play

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September 29th, 2009

Star Wars According to Eddie Izzard

9/29/09 08:17 pm
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Storm Trooper: "It's just the rebels, sir. They're here."
Commander: "My god man! Do they want tea?"
Trooper: "No I think they're after something more then that, sir. I don't know what it is but they've brought a flag."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lNHX7zmMvis#t=3m52s

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Kayobi 二日

9/29/09 04:45 pm
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Two days…

So last night I re-watched Another Gay Movie and Another Gay Sequel: Gays Gone Wild. I get a kick out of those films. I found them several months ago and, a few months earlier, I began to play a character named “Nico” in a D&D game. In this game, Nico was fabulous. He was a bard who could sew and was not at all subtle about his flamming fagotry. I loved him, he was so much fun to play. I was amused that in these two films, the character who is the leading lady is also named Nico. LOL

At the end of the first movie they hint at the sequel, and at the end of the sequel they hint at a third movie (Gays In Space). I really hope this third movie gets made. Whee!

Packing has begun and the bulk of it gets done tonight!

I lost the battery cover of my PSP. I must have lost it somewhere between Sunday evening and yesterday morning. I cannot find it anywhere which is all right. It’s reason to purchase the extended battery (which comes with a cover) I suppose but, before that, I’m going to make sure I have Silent Hill: Shattered Memories or Katamari Forever. I’m not sure yet. I think I’d get more enjoyment out of Katamari, to be honest. I want to live inside that game. OMG.

Oh good lord I want one of these.

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September 28th, 2009

Getsuyobi 三日

9/28/09 11:34 am
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Three days…

I watched The Chronicles of Riddick on Saturday night and, yes, I do enjoy that movie. Although I still question the “face” theme of the Deathmongers, I don’t understand why they’re so into faces when there’s plenty of other death-themed imagery that doesn’t look nearly as ridiculous. The whole “Furyans” thing, though, also still makes me groan. It’s the “Proud Warrior Race Guy” trope – an entire planet where everyone belongs to the same religion and the same philosophy, speaking the same language, wearing similar clothing. But that’s a shortcoming of just about every piece of science fiction ever devised – planets other than Earth are monocultures for some reason. Anyway, I’m just bitching. I actually do like the movie.

Last night I went to hang out with my gaming buddies for the last time, we had dinner, played some video games and said our good-byes (for now). Today I’m back at work. Tonight I’m going to begin packing or, at least, going through what I’ll take and what I’ll have to leave behind.

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September 27th, 2009

Nichiyobi 四日

9/27/09 11:10 am
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Four days...

Wow, it's just getting closer and closer to that time. I checked the long-range forecast for this week and it's supposed to be sunny the day before and the day after I leave, but on the day I actually leave it's supposed to train. I was, like, but then I LOL'd . 

Today I'm going to go visit my gaming buddies for the last time and then, this evening, I'm going to start getting some things together for packing over the next few days. Why did I have to buy so many books?!

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September 25th, 2009

[Video] Opinions & Beliefs

9/25/09 08:55 pm
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I haven't done one of these in a while.




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Kinyobi 六日

9/25/09 02:52 pm
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Six days…

Watched the second episode of True Blood’s first season last night. Jason is ridiculous, Sookie is adorable and I like the opening theme “Bad Things”. If a very talented rock group were to do a cover of it, it would be my Mage character’s theme song. Tonight I watch episode three of Supernatural, The Vampire Diaries and True Blood.

I’m continuing to read Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. The kids have just boarded the train and are about to meet Luna Lovegood for the first time. Whee!

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September 24th, 2009

Mokuyobi 七日

9/24/09 05:36 pm
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Seven days…

Watched the first episode of the first season of True Blood last night. I’ve seen a few episodes here and there and really liked what I saw, so now I’ve committed to watching the first season from beginning to end and then continuing with the second season. Tonight new episodes of Supernatural and The Vampire Diaries (*swoon*).

Had my first bubble tea since … a while. The one I had in Regina doesn’t count. That wasn’t bubble tea. That was … a mechanically separated beverage facsimile for entertainment purposes only.

I’ve been wanting to write again but I don’t know what. It’s a bit frustrating, actually.

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September 23rd, 2009

[PS3] It's Real!

9/23/09 03:49 pm
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OMG! The God of War Collection is real! It’s coming in November! Whee! :D

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Suiyobi 八日

9/23/09 12:12 pm
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Eight days…

One of the things that always annoyed me about Aerith in Final Fantasy VII was that she was so difficult to get her to learn new Limit Break techniques. Ugh.

I’m buying one of these when it’s released. It’s decided. This will be everything I could ever need for gaming. It will hold my gaming e-books, character sheets, sketches, et cetera. As someone who commented on this item wrote, I can forgive the future for not giving me a jetpack if I can have this.

The anime series Shangri-La concluded last week and those of us who do not have a paid membership to Crunchyroll were able to watch it this week. The ending was satisfactory though I think they tried to shoe-horn a certain element into it – a trope I’ve never understood. I’ll hide that bit beneath here:

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